study (again)

Dari pagi tadi ngerjain proposal buat S3. Hueee... studi lagi, studi lagi. Master kemarin aja udah sukses bikin mata jadi minus 1,5 kiri - kanan. S3 ntar bikin apa yak? Botak? :((

Tapi yaaa.. ini khan kewajiban. Tuntutan pekerjaan. Mau ga mau, kudu dijalanin. Ambil hikmahnya aja deh, bisa sekolah sambil jalan-jalan. Assiikk.. assiikkk... :D

Ummhh.., mo di jerman? belanda? aussie? jepang? or yang deket-deket aja kaya phillipines? ;;)

Tapi ini S3 bo'. Ga bisa enak-enakan. Skill lab kudu tinggi (karena apa-apa ntar kan dikerjain ndiri, ga ada laboran yang bakal bantuin kaya di endonesa), teori kudu mantab, belum lagi masalah adaptasi kultural en masalah terpisah jauh dengan orang-orang tercinta di sini :( Bener-bener kudu siapin mental, fisik & emosi!

& jam 2 siang ntar sama mbak Erna mo jalan dulu, ikut presentasi StuNed & NFP di UC. Aku udah paham cara apply-nya sih, udah punya file penawarannya juga, but ga ada salahnya lihat & dengerin presentasi dari orang StuNed-nya sendiri, mumpung mereka lagi mampir ke UGM.

So.. jadinya kemana nih? jerman? belanda? asia? atau .. apply semua aja? hehehehehe...

lyric of the day : the next time i fall

Love like a road that never ends

How it leads me back again

To heartache I’ll never understand

Darling I put my heart up on a shelf’

till the moment was right and I told myself

Next time I fall in love

I’ll know better what to do

Next time I fall in love

The next time I fall in love

It will be with you

Now as I look into your eyes

Well I wonder if it’s wise

To hold you

Like I’ve wanted to before

Tonight I was thinking that you might

Be the one who breathes life in this heart of mine

Next time I’m gonna follow through

And if it drives me crazy

I will know better why

The next time I try

_____________________
Amy Grant & Peter Cetera

Ramalan Bintang Taurus April 20 - Mei 19

Edisi Januari 2005

Hari Keberuntungan: Kalo pas Gajian

Hari Tidak Beruntung: Senin ~ Minggu

Umum: Pekerjaan tertunda akan selesai apabila dikerjakan. Hindari sakit perut dengan cara jangan banyak makan yang pedas [kata dokter], Rumah tangga bahagia terutama yang belum berumah tangga (bingungkan?).

Perjalanan: Jangan bepergian kalo lagi nggak ada duit .

Asmara: Mulai bersemi bunga2 mekar apalagi tanaman tsb dikasih pupuk

Hubungan dengan Zodiac lain:
Cocok: Mercurius, Mars, Pluto
Perasaan kompleks: memang kalo tinggal di komplek banyak perasaan
Hubungan aneh: mencintai sesama jenis
Tidak cocok: kamu berpasangan sama Krisdayanthi

my hape 2.52 pm

sms out : jadi ke jogja?
sms in : diservis gak?
sms out : servis? kalau artinya ml / sex = ga, sorry.. NO SERVIS
sms in : ya ga lah. Kok kesitu terus sih?
sms out : trauma
sms in : ma apa?
sms out : mayoritas temen cowo pikirannya cuma sex
sms in : aku kan becanda
sms out : still make me afraid
sms in : nothing happened!

...... iya juga sih. But napa yak aku takut? Ada yang salah kah di aku? Or, maybe b'coz deep inside my heart, i knew that i'm somebody's?
still don't understand :(

& kadang aku cape nolak & jelasin prinsip. Suka dibilang arogan, sok suci & buntut-buntutnya disebelin & dijauhin. Hhhhh... Am I wrong?
Susah bisa deket sama temen cowo, deket banget, tanpa ada pikiran ke arah sex dari cowo-nya :(
Apakah emang temen cowo ga bisa dijadiin deket seperti sahabat cewe? atau mungkin, seperti kakak cowo?

Ternyata susah untuk bersikap tegas tanpa nyakitin orang..

For the love of our child...

Orang tua saat ini cenderung merupakan orang tua yang baik secara instrumental tetapi tidak secara emosional. Mereka baik dalam menyediakan semua sarana dan fasilitas hidup bagi anak, bahkan secara berlebihan. Sayangnya, kebutuhan anak bukan hanya fasilitas dan sarana hidup. Anak perlu disiplin dan dukungan emosional dari orang tuanya. Anak perlu orang yang bisa diajak bicara dan mengarahkan hidupnya. Anak perlu seorang mentor.

Kesibukan orang tua karena pekerjaan tanpa disadari telah menelantarkan kebutuhan psikologis dan emosional anak. Anak menjadi terawat secara fisik tetapi terlantar secara emosional.

Angka perceraian yang melebihi angka tetap kawin mengakibatkan banyak anak dirawat oleh orang tua tunggal. Sulit buat mereka untuk mampu menjadi baik "a good insrumental" dan "a good psychological parent." Tidak heran, banyak anak-anak pada usia muda menjadi terlantar secara emosionil karena kesibukan orang tuanya.

Dalam riset ditemukan, anak-anak yang tidak memiliki figur otoritas dalam keluarganya cenderung mencari gang untuk menemukan pemimpin yang berani mengontrol dan mendisiplin hidup mereka. Mereka tertarik dan merindukan ikatan batin dengan figur yang mampu mengatur hidup mereka.

Anak-anak yang kosong hatinya biasanya cenderung mengisi kekosongannya dengan hal-hal instrumental. Orang Jawa menemukan gejala kelompok ini dan menyebutnya sebagai "Mo Limo" (Lima M). Mabuk, Madon, Madat, Main, dan Maling merupakan aktivitas-aktivitas yang sering dikerjakan oleh anak-anak yang mengalami depravasi emosional meskipun kecukupan secara instrumental. Anak-anak ini mengalami depravasi superego. Mereka kurang menginternalisasi aturan-aturan keluarga dan masyarakat. Fondasi moralnya rapuh. Pemimpin gang biasanya menjadi eksternal superego mereka.

umbilical cord blood, UCB

www.warta.unair.ac.id/artikel/index.php?id=10 - 27k

Buah merah anti kanker..

Masyarakat tradisional di Wamena, Timika dan desa-desa kawasan pegunungan Jayawijaya terbiasa mengonsumsi buah merah (aseli papua) sebagai obat cacing, penyakit kebutaan, dan penyakit kulit. Khasiat mengkonsumsi buah merah diyakini penduduk sekitar sebagai faktor penyebab mereka menjadi jarang terkena penyakit degeneratif seperti hipertensi, diabetes, penyakit jantung dan kanker.

Dengan meneliti kandungan komposisi gizinya, ternyata dalam sari buah merah banyak mengandung antioksidan (kandungan rata-rata):

- Karoten (12.000 ppm)

- Betakaroten (700 ppm)

- Tokoferol (11.000 ppm)

Disamping beberapa zat lain yang meningkatkan daya tahan tubuh, antara lain : asam oleat, asam linoleat, asam linolenat, dekanoat, Omega 3 dan Omega 9, yg semuanya merupakan senyawa aktif penangkal terbentuknya radikal bebas dalam tubuh.

Betakaroten berfungsi memperlambat berlangsungnya penumpukan flek pada arteri. So, aliran darah ke jantung dan otak berlangsung tanpa sumbatan. Interaksinya dengan protein meningkatkan produksi antibodi. Ini meningkatkan jumlah sel pembunuh alami dan memperbanyak aktifitas sel T Helpers dan limfosit. Suatu kutipan studi membuktikan konsumsi betakaroten 30-60 mg/hari selama 2 bulan membuat tubuh dapat memperbanyak sel-sel alami pembasmi penyakit. Bertambahnya sel-sel alami itu menekan kehadiran sel-sel kanker karena ampuh menetralisasikan radikal bebas senyawa karsinogen penyebab kanker.

Dalam beberapa penelitian terbatas yg sudah dilakukan dengan metode pengobatan langsung dengan sari buah Merah, diperoleh keberhasilan yg amat tinggi dalam upaya pengobatan yg dilaksanakan terhadap penyakit tumor otak, tumor kandungan, tumor payudara, kanker hati, bahkan juga HIV/AIDS yg sebagian besar kasus penyembuhan terjadi atas pasien-pasien di Papua.

Tapi kabarnya, harga 1 buah merah lumayan mahal.. sekitar 1 juta rupiah per buah.. :(

Nah ini dia foto-nya buah merah (plus cowo aseli papua). Jangan keliru buah ma koteka-nya yak.. :">

Di atas normal

Pas nemenin aca dengerin peterpan, iseng-iseng ta' perhatiin ternyata lagu peterpan yang satu ini liriknya pas banget sama yang lagi aku alami. Beuh.. & jadilah ringtone hape berubah judul menjadi : "di atas normal" :p

Pikiranku tak dapat

ku mengerti

kaki di kepala

kepala di kaki

Pikiranku

patutnya menyadari

siapa yang harus

dan tak harus kucari

Tetapi tak dapat

kumengerti

Sesuatu yang

baru kusadari

Kau tinggalkanku

tanpa sebab yang pasti

Sesuatu yang

harusnya terjadi

Kau sakiti aku

Kau yang harus kubenci

Ku mencari sesuatu

yang telah pergi

Ku mencari

hati yang kubenci

Ku mencari sesuatu

yang tak kembali

Ku mencari

hati yang kubenci

Ku mencari

tetap tak dapat

kutemui

Ku mencari

hati yang kubenci

Di atas normal by Peterpan

weird

Hhhhh.. terus terang jadi bingung & ga enak ati nih. Ga gitu ngerti apa sebabnya, one of my friend (a man) tiba-tiba, seolah-olah kaya jaga jarak ke aku. Padahal dulu kami biasa deket & ngobrolin apa aja. Ada yang menduga, dia kira aku naksir dia..

Aduuhhh! Padahal ga kepikir sedikitpun buat anggap dia more than a good friend :(

Aku jadi ga comfort dengan situasi sekarang.. Gimana yak, biasanya deket, ga sungkan-sungkan cerita-cerita, sekarang tiba-tiba kaya ada jarak, dia jauh. Sedih juga :( Aku kaya kehilangan satu tempat bercerita & ngobrol yang menyenangkan.

Aku ga tahu nih kudu gimana. Should I tell him what i feel exactly? Bahwa aku cuman anggap dia ga lebih dari seorang teman baik? Or, should I pretend there's nothin' changed between us?

BTW, semalam satu lagi temanku (namanya Luthfi alias Joe) epon. Sukses ngebangunin aku jam setengah sembilan malam, pas baru aja tidur sama aca. Setelah ngomel panjang lebar karena aku ga pengen ketemu dia pas di jakarta kemarin, akhirnya dia baru paham setelah aku jelasin bahwa aku ga mau deketin sumber bahaya & dia tahu maksud aku dengan sumber bahaya itu : wanna sex from me.
No way, itu dosa. I don't wanna do it. Meskipun aku ga gitu alim and cenderung liberal, aku tetep berusaha pegang teguh ajaran agama & norma di endonesa.. Meskipun aku sendiri ragu-ragu, seandainya suatu hari nanti aku ketemu ma someone yang bakalan jadi soulmate & aku jatuh cinta setengah mati ma dia, Can I still keep my principle?

finally..

It's turnpoint. Goodbye all..

is that wrong?

When a loved one is not with you..
To want to be with someone you love, is that wrong?
To want to hold them in your arms, is that wrong?
To want to caress them all night, is that wrong?
To want to reach out and tell them how you feel, is that wrong?
To want to see them every second of every a day, is that wrong?

When they are with you..
To appreciate their company, is that wrong?
To hold them in your arms, even if only for a moment, is that wrong?
To caress them if they are tired or sore, is that wrong?
To tell them that you love them more than anything, is that wrong?
To see them as much as you can, is that wrong?

After they have gone..
To ache to see them again, is that wrong?
To dream that you are holding them in your arms, is that wrong?
To caress the memories of a loved one, is that wrong?
To long to tell them how they make you feel, is that wrong?
To hope and pray that it won’t be long till you see them again, is that wrong?

To have the feelings of love I have for a guy, is it wrong?
Is it wrong for me to love this guy when he is with a partner?
How wrong is it to love him for who he is, even if I know he will never be mine?
This guy, nice in both mind and body, knows how I feel, is that wrong?
To love him this much, respect his partner and never try to take him for myself…

Is this wrong?

my name

Asal muasal

1. "Good Night, Sleep tight" Jaman dulu di Inggris, matras untuk tidur biasanya diikat ujung-ujungnya dengan tali yang dikaitkan kerangka tempat tidur. Ketika seseorang hendak berangkat tidur, maka tali-tali tersebut ditarik sehingga matras menjadi lebih kencang, lebih "firm" untuk tidur. Maka dari sinilah lahir ekspresi "Good Night, Sleep Tight".
   
   
2. "Honeymoon" Dimasa Babylon 4000 tahun lalu, selama sebulan setelah acara pernikahan, ayah dari mempelai putri biasanya akan menyediakan sejenis minuman yang terbuat dari madu lebah. Dan karena mereka menggunakan kalender lunar sebagai sistem penanggalan, maka tenggang masa selama sebulan itu mereka sebut sebagai "Honeymoon".
   
   
3. "You're fired" Orang-orang Scotland pada millenium pertama mempunyai kesepakatan untuk mengusir orang tak berkenan dari kampung mereka, dengan jalan membakar rumah orang tersebut tanpa memberikan peringatan sebelumnya. Dari sinilah istilah "Get fired" untuk orang yang dikeluarkan secara paksa dari organisasi.
   
   
4. "F.U.C.K" Nah yang ini paling seru... di zaman baheula di Inggris sono seseorang tidak bisa berhubungan badan tanpa memiliki izin tertulis dari raja (kecuali kalau memang dia anggota keluarga kerajaan). Jadi jika seseorang ingin memiliki bayi, mereka akan pergi ke raja untuk meminta izin tertulis. Sang raja kemudian memberikan semacam kartu pass yang harus digantung di daun pintu kamar ketika mereka berhubungan badan. Kartu ini bertulisan "F.U.C.K" (Fornification Under Consent of the King).

women's brain

You Know You're Indonesian When...

Your stomach growls when you don't eat rice for a day.
You believe kecap ABC could turn bad cooking to gourmet food.
You talk during a movie.
You eat fried rice in the morning.
You prefer Versace or Moschino jeans over Gap or Levi's.
You don't think Jim Carrey is funny.
You think Onky Alexander is a hunk.
You think Rhoma Irama is kampungan.
You carry a 16 oz. jar of sambal to where ever you travel.
Driving a car that is cheaper than $15,000 embarrasses you.
You think dangdut is stupid, but listen to it anyways, because you are homesick.
You are willing to travel 25 miles to buy tahu and tempe.
You are "Dreaming of a WARM Christmas".
You are very good at avoiding potholes and other road hazards.
Your local McDonald's serves rice and sambal.
You think Supermi is a staple food.
You have ever tried passing a Rp 50 coin as a quarterin a US vending machine/pay phone.
You have ever successfully bribed a police officer.
You have ever successfully bribed a customs officer.
You do your shopping in Singapore.
Your drivers license claims you are 5 years older then you really are.
You have ever legally bought pirated software.
You have ever been forced to memorize UUD'45.
You have bought something from a barefooted streetpeddler.
You know exactly how many islands Indonesia has.
You have ever eaten something sold off a cart onwheels.
You realized that money is everything before you were six.
The first thing that comes to mind when hearing the word "Jakarta" is "macet".
Someone you know has ever ridden on top of a train.
Your daily commute includes thinking up new ways toride the city bus for free.
You don't mind people being late.
You think standing in line is a waste of time.
You have tried every Monday of your youth trying to avoid upacara bendera.
You have used a mosquito repellant that looks like a coil and is lit on one end.
You use the terms "Ni yee", "-lah" and "Ih, jijay" on daily basis.
You know what Pancasila is, what it means and know it by heart.
You complain that movies in America don't have sub-titles.
Your daily conversation may include enactments of TV commercials.
You have ever consulted a dukun.
Your whole class has ever cheated on a test, and gotten away with it.
You have ever spent the night before an exam looking for someone who sells the questions.
You like the smell of terasi.
You think the Thomas Cup is equal to the Super Bowl.
You can name a manufacturer of shuttlecocks/badminton birdies.
You have a 16' satellite dish hidden in your backyard.
You have ever ridden in a motor vehicle with three wheels.
You miss your maid during laundry day.
Your clothing has brand names printed on it that is visible from 50' away.
You attend weddings only until you are done eating.
You have attended weddings that you are not invited to.
You go to McDonald's to get your weekly supply of ketchup, salt, pepper and napkins.
You know more than one music group that stole the tune of Cranberries' "Zombie".
You have a can of Baygon on your kitchen table.
You make major decisions based on gengsi.
You take advantage of Wal-Mart's 30 days money-back-guarantee to "borrow" home appliances.
Someone in your family has extra pockets in his outfit to hide cookies from the all-you-can-eat bar.
You have paid more then $1000 to get your name on your license plate.
When watching TV you regularly find that all the channels broadcast the same thing.
You know more than 10 acronyms/abbreviations.
You set the ring tone of your cell phone as loud as possible.
You spend your weekends at an expensive five star hotel near your house.

You have one of those gigantic 5000 watts stereo system even though you can't turn it as loud as you can since you live in a crowded neighborhood.

Your Toyota Kijang is packed with bull bar, foglights, roof rail, car alarm, expensive car audio, gold plated emblems, tail light "protector", racing steering wheels, sports muffler, lowered suspension,17 inch wheels with expensive tires, etc. Yet you find them not gaul enough.

You are able to squeeze 15 passengers in your Toyota Kijang.

If you're rich, you buy a huge 50.000 dollars imported SUV and demands it to run minimal 12 kilometers with a liter of gas.

You refuse to buy unleaded gas for your imported careven though it costs less than 20 cents a liter.
You have your drivers license at the age of 14. You got it without any driving tests.
You are unfamiliar with electric stove.
You are even more unfamiliar with microwave ovens.
If you're a student, your main purpose in life is to succeed in UMPTN and get into a Universitas Negeri.

If you've graduated from college, your main purpose inl ife is to find an easy job with big salary at a foreign company even if you have to stay unemployed for five years to find one.

If you finally got a job, your main purpose in life is now to get a wife/husband that's rich, from a "good"family, and the most importantly good looking in order to memperbaiki keturunan.

You're proud to be Indonesian - and you pass these jokes on to all your Indonesian friends!


:D

If You Knew..

I wish I could just tell what is in my heart
When you started asking questions from the start
What would you do if you knew?

I think of all the signs you've shown
Some were okay, and some were like my own
What would you do if you knew?

If I could only say "I am falling in love with you"
What would you do?
Would you scream and yell,
or run and tell?
Or just by chance would you love me back?

But still each night when I go to sleep
I'll dream a dream so sweet
It's the dream when I told you "I love you"
And you hold me in your arms and say
"I love you too"


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