Break Up Letter

Hi, my motive write this letter is to give know you something
(hai, bersama surat ini saya ingin memberi tahu sesuatu)

I WANT TO CUT CONNECTION US
(saya ingin memutuskan hubungan kita)

I have think about this very cook cook
(saya telah memikirkan ini masak masak)

I know I clap one hand only
(saya tahu bahwa saya hanya bertepuk sebelah tangan)

Correctly, I have seen you and she together at town with my eyes and head myself
(sebenarnya, saya pernah melihat kamu bersama perempuan lain di kota dengan mata kepala saya sendiri)

You always ask for apology back back
(kamu selalu minta maaf berulang ulang)

I don't trust you again!!
(saya tidak percaya kamu lagi)

You are really crocodile land!!
(kamu benar benar buaya darat)

My Friend speak you play fire
(teman saya bilang kamu bermain api)

Now I know you correct correct play fire
(sekarang saya tahu kamu benar benar bermain api)

So, I break connection to pull my body from this love triangle
(jadi saya putuskan saja hubungan untuk menarik diri dari cinta segitiga ini)

I know this result I pick is very correct, because you love she very high from me
(saya tahu keputusan yg saya ambil ini benar, karena kamu mencintai dia lebih tinggi dari saya)

So, I break off to go far from here
(jadi saya putuskan untuk pergi dari sini)

I don't want you to play play with my liver
(saya tidak ingin kamu main main dengan hati saya)

I have been crying until no more eye water thinking about you
saya menangis sampai tidak ada lagi air mata memikirkan kamu)

I don't want banana to fruit two times
(saya tidak mau terpeleset untuk kedua kalinya)

Safe walk... (selamat jalan..)


=))

Goodbye Chrisye..

Innalilahiwainnailaihirojiun

Telang Berpulang ke Rahmatullah

Sang Legenda....Sang Maestro....Sang Masterpiece

Artis kebanggaan Indonesia : Chrisye, tadi pagi pukul 4 menghembuskan nafasnya yang terakhir pada usia 56 Tahun.

Almarhum akan dimakamkan hari ini pukul 2 siang di TPU Jeruk Purut Jakarta Selatan

Turut berdukacita, semoga amal dan ibadah almarhum diterima disisi-Nya, dan keluarga yang ditinggalkan senantiasa diberikan ketabahan dan kekuatan. Amin..


Sigh..

Bikin inget Christ lagi :(
Christ mirip Chrisye. Chinese-nya, hobby nyanyi-nya.. main gitar-nya.. pemalunya, kesahajaannya..

BTW, ga sengaja nemu temen Christ di FS 2 hari yang lalu. Biant :D Jadi nostalgia jaman SMP ;))

I remember.. always

Gimana rasanya separuh hidup dalam kenangan masa lalu?

Jawabannya tergantung, kenangannya bagus apa ga. I remember Christ, yang selalu ada sampai sekarang.. Semuanya tentang dia dari awal aku kenal dia :)

Aku juga inget Benny. Dia temen SMPku, kakak kelas, temennya Christ, pacarnya Ivonne yang sekelas sama aku. Kebetulan dia juga anaknya temen gerejanya Papi. & sama dengan Christ, dia maniak basket. Wajar, karena di usia dini gitu, SMP, dia sudah diincer salah satu klub basket terkenal di Surabaya waktu itu buat jadi salah satu tim-nya.

Benny meninggal kecelakaan setelah pulang latihan basket di klub, cuman gara-gara hindarin orang jalan meleng di pinggir jalan. Gara-gara orang yang jalannya meleng kesana kemari itu, Benny jatuh dari motornya & kelindes truk PT PAL. Tau kan truk PT PAL segede apa? Supir truk-nya aja bilang : "saya ga ngerasa ngelindas orang, saya kira yang saya lindas batu.." Astaghfirullah.

Sigh..

Seminggu sebelum Benny meninggal, kami ada di lapangan yang sama buat ikut kejurnas Marching band. (Christ ga, dia ga ikut marching band & aku setengah mati kangen dia). Aku ga pernah sadar Benny merhatiin aku (aku cuman mikir Christ :p), tapi aku inget betul Ivonne nyamperin aku & ngobrol, cerita, bahwa Benny sebetulnya naksir aku.

Aku melongo.

Jelas aku melongo. Semua se-sekolah juga tahu Ivonne pacarnya Benny. Sayangnya mereka berhasil nutupin jejak bahwa mereka sudah putus hubungan. Ivonne malah ketawa ngelihat aku ga percaya. Aku ngelihat Benny yang sibuk main-mainin terompetnya. Aku heran luar biasa.

"Kamu mau kan?" Ivonne nanya. Aku ketawa. Seneng sih ada yang naksir :p Tapi jelas aku ga punya rasa apapun ke Benny kecuali sayang biasa. Dia emang aku anggap kakak, temen baik, pacarnya Ivonne, anaknya temen gereja Papi.. That's all. "Kamu masih ngarepin Christ ya?" Ivonne nanya lagi.. menohok, jeb jeb jeb. Aku cuman bisa senyum kecut.

Pagi setelah Benny meninggal, satu sekolah pada pulang awal, jam 9, buat ngelepas Benny di krematorium. Aku ga ikut. Aku pilih pulang ke rumah. Aku inget banget, hobbyku waktu itu ngumpulin kata-kata bijak dari Bible, yang belakangan aku tahu itu juga hobby Benny. Pas lagi enak-enak baca Bible (aku inget aku lagi buka Mazmur), pembantuku lari ke kamarku & bilang kalau dia merinding karena di dapur bau bunga kenceng banget. Aku ngakak. Ya ga mungkin lah, wong dia lagi goreng ikan kok bisa bau bunga. Tapi belum sempat pembantuku jawab, kamarku ikut-ikut bau bunga. & tiba-tiba aku inget Benny. Aku & pembantuku lari ke halaman & diem disana for about 5 minutes. Pas masuk ke rumah lagi, bau itu udah ilang.

Aku tahu aku orangnya emang rada 'sensitif'. Danan pernah bilang, kalau aku mau ngebuka diri, sebenarnya bisa lebih terasah indera keenamnya. Tapi aku ga mau. Kadang-kadang aja aku pake kalau dimintai tolong temen atau kolega. So, aku yakin Benny pasti pamit waktu itu.

Sampai sekarang aku masih suka keinget Benny. Tiap inget Christ, ketemu dia, pasti mau ga mau aku inget Benny. Tapi biar gimanapun, saat ini Benny cuman jadi kenangan. Christ di depan mata, selalu, dari dulu.

Christ emang ga lagi muter-muterin bola basketnya di jari tengah :D.. atau muter-muterin map-nya di jari tengah, tapi dia tetep Christ, yang kebetulan anak karyawannya Papi, yang kebetulan kakak kelas SMPku, yang kebetulan aku bisa nyusul & nemenin dia di SMA kompleks biarpun cuman setahun (Christ keburu lulus, aku kelas 1 dia udah kelas 3 :( )& banyak kebetulan-kebetulan lain yang kadang bikin kami mikir, apa iya celetukannya Bu Sutrisno, (guru bahasa Inggris pas SMP, wali kelasku & Christ) yang bilang ke aku : "Sylvie, kamu plek sama murid Ibu dulu, namanya Christian, kayak jodoh aja" itu betul? Aku masih inget banget sosok Christ waktu jaman SMP dulu & Christ juga. Christ bilang, aku dulu lugu banget, pemalu, cantik & apa adanya :D beda banget sama sekarang :p

Yang aku tahu, aku selalu tersenyum hanya karena inget Christ. Yang jelas, mami selalu senyum lebar tiap inget Christ.. Yang jelas, Papi selalu bernostalgia dengan kantor & staf-stafnya tiap aku cerita Christ..

Mungkin selamanya Christ akan ada, abadi..

£*$!X^&%!

Huaaaa.. !!!

I'm so bizi! I have a workstation on my desk!

:(

Padahal pengen :
1. baca John Grisham's
2. (sambil) dengerin Dave Koz
3. (ditemenin sama) satu mug gede coffee cream
4. & 1/2 dozen mochi ring..

:((

Lyric of The Day : Kemenangan Hati

Tak pernah kusangka aku disini
Bersamamu, dalam hatiku
Setiap langkah ini begitu berarti
Mengubahku, jalan hidupku

Tidak mudah tuk lewati
Hari sulit tanpamu

Dan kau hadir saat tangis dan tawaku
Engkau ada dan tlah menangkan hatiku
Semua cinta yang telah kau beri
Yakinkan aku tuk bermimpi
Dan kemenangan ini milik kita

Kadang kumerasa tak akan mampu
Melewati beratnya hari
Tapi keyakinanmu pada diriku
Membuatku tuk berdiri lagi

Ku tak takut tuk melangkah
Genggam erat tanganku

Semua ini karna dirimu, ooh...

Taken from : Kemenangan Hati Yovie Widianto

Readings of The Day [celtic cross]

The atmosphere saurrounding the central issue :

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. Almost every definition of this card indicates abundance, happiness, elevation, luck. A change that just happens, and brings with it great joy.

The obstacle thant stands in your way :

It does not mean physical death. Rather, the Death card portrays symbolic death-a change or transformation. Often, it heralds the end of a familiar or more comfortable mode. It conveys a release which is necessary for growth and expansion. Perhaps it even brings a whole new set of principles which will guide you spiritually, emotionally, psychologically or financially. There are changes which you know you need to make but which you are resisting. The potent Death imagery may serve to remind you that the more you hate something and the more you run from it, the more you are bound to it. You are caught by that which you seek to avoid. Resistance leads to persistence and sometimes that resistance to a problem or situation may actually help to maintain it. The Death card may help you to release resistance.

Your goal, or the best you can achieve without a dramatic change of prioroties :

It means a union of opposites, like the black and white steeds. They pull in different directions, but must be (and can be!) made to go together in one direction. Control is required over opposing emotions, wants, needs, people, circumstances; bring them together and give them a single direction, your direction. Confidence is also needed and, most especially, motivation. The card can, in fact, indicate new motivation or inspiration, which gets a stagnant situation moving again.

The foundation on which the situation is based :

Developing a trip or making real a career, especially one in acting or leadership.


A passing influence or something to be released :

This card signifies a lucky windfall or payment for work well done, enough to buy what you most want. It can also indicate a retreat to a spa or one of those beautiful bed & breakfast inns where you're pampered and waited on hand and foot. Everything is lovely, luxurious. The physical things the Querent has been seeking, things they wanted but were unable to buy, they will finally be able to have.

An approaching influence or something to be embraced :

It is sometimes called the "wish" card. What you have an appetite for you will be given, your wish will come true. On the more emotional level, relationships are loving and complete. Creativity at a high, friendships and emotions are good. It is like walking into an inn and finding that the innkeeper has already filled his chalices with the best wine for you and your friends. The joy and camaraderie the Querent seeks he will surely find.

Your role or attitude :

They can represent new ideas, goals, career resumes, projects in the works, love letters, emails; also a journey by air travel or love of open spaces, including gardening and field sports. Lots of things are 'up in the air' and you are waiting to see how something turns out.

Your environment and the people tou are interacting with :

It means that long term conditions are going to come to an end. An unexpected opportunity will present itself that will give you a chance to promote yourself or your business. You will make connections with people whose company you enjoy.

Your efforts will be rewarded. Take moments away from your busy world to meditate, or just experience silence. Follow your hunches and don't do what doesn't feel right. In time your desires will be realized. As with all Court cards, it is also possible for a Knight to represent a person. In this case, the Knight of pentacles can represent a man who has a good work ethic, and is patient in material matters. He is responsible and trustworthy.

Your hopes, fears, or an unexpected elements that will come into play :

It meansyou may entirely rely on yourself in your decisions. You own truth and knowledge already – find them within yourself. Calm your mind and your emotions. Meditation is the key to truthful awareness.

The ultimate should you contonue on this course :

It's a clear sailing card - you have the peace of mind you need to make a big decision. Your troubles will end when you make a journey across water (this could be a mudpuddle - the cards have a sense of humour). Someone has to turn and face you and show you respect and compassion, they are "hopelessly entangled" until they do. They are capable, which means moving forward and leaving the present situation behind.

Nonbar

Semalam non-bar Lewat Tengah Malam sama Wawan :D Filmnya mayan ngagetin (nyeremin sih ga begitu.. Masih jauuuuhhhh lebih nyeremin film horor-nya Jepang kaya The Ring atau The Eye). Cuman sayangnya, endingnya sediiihh.. huhuhu.. :( Aku udah berlinang air mata bo’. Untung ga jadi nangis beneran. Malu kan..

Abis non-bar, sebelum pulang, Wawan nyempet-nyempetin beli salad yang dressingnya blueberry.. Hmm.. nyam! & berhubung aku ga suka salad, aku makan buns aja.. :D Asyik sih, tapi deep inside aku ngerasa rada ga nyaman, soale aku juarang buanget pergi keluar malam tanpa Aca since my hubby passed away. Udah hampir 5 tahun padahal. Rasanya ada guilty feeling ninggal Aca sendiri sama Eyangnya, meskipun kata Mami, Mami enjoy aja dititipin Aca. Sigh.. Jadinya pas pulang non-bar, meskipun udah bawa belanjaan 1 tas besar penuh pesenan Mami & 1 tas besar isi buku baru gara-gara lapar mata pas mampir ke stand-nya Gramedia, aku masih bela-belain bawa segembol gede sprei & bedcover cars yang udah dikirim Mbak Mutia buat Aca. Hoho.. dia seneng banget. Dia juga minta ditemenin nonton film terbarunya Mr. Bean kalau udah diputer di Amplas ntar & pastilah nontonnya sama Wawan juga ;) Hohoho.. what a lucky niece!

I'm 56% chinese!

[] You like to eat chicken feet.
[] You sing karaoke.
[] You've worn glasses ever since you were in fifth grade.
[] You'll haggle over something that is not negotiable.
[] You are a math genius.
Total: 0

[x] You take showers at night.
[x] You avoid the non-free snacks in hotel rooms.
[x] You say "aiyah!" and "wah!" frequently.
[x] You save grocery bags.
[x] You twirl your pen around your fingers.
Total:5

[x] You have been taught that wasting food is a sin.
[] Your dad thinks he can fix everything himself.
[] You beat eggs with chopsticks.
[] You like congee with thousand-year-old eggs.
[] You have eaten moon cakes.
Total: 1

[x] If you don't live at home, when your parents call, they ask you if you've eaten, even if it's midnight.
[] You email/msn your Chinese friends, even though you're only 10 feet apart.
[] You can read traditional chinese
[x] Your toothpaste tubes are all squeezed paper-thin before they are thrown away.
[x] You know what pearl milk teas are.
Total: 3


[x] You bring fruit with you as a gift when you visit people's homes.
[x] You have acquired a taste for bitter melon.
[x] You eat every last grain of rice in your bowl, but don't eat the last piece of food on the table.
[x] Your parents argue with other adults over the dinner bill.
[x] You love to use coupons.
Total: 5


Now add the numbers up and multiply it by 4 then post i'm _% chinese

Aca

Kemarin sore ngukur tinggi badan Aca gara-gara banyak yang comment "kok Aca tinggi ya?" tiap ketemu Aca. Ternyata tingginya udah 130,5 cm! Padahal dia sekarang baru kelas 2 SD. Kelas berapa dia bakal setinggi aku? 4, 5? Setengah tahun kemarin perasaan masih 122 cm deh. Berat badannya sekarang 24 kg. Pertumbuhannya emang ke atas, belum ke samping (ndut).

Siang ini lagi Tae Kwon Doo. Udah sabuk kuning. Seminggu ini dia ulangan terus tiap hari, tadi matematika, besok bahasa inggris, lusa ips, besoknya lagi sain.. Nilainya Alhamdulillah ga pernah lebih rendah dari 85. Semoga bisa dia pertahanin. Aku emang penginnya dia ga cuma cakep di tampang, tapi pintar juga di akademik & non-akademik :)

Getting Bored

Males banget kudu ke Jakarta lagi :(

Boseeeeenn !!