My prayer today

God,
please give me a strength to fight for things which are worth to fight for,
but please give me a sincerity to accept things which I can not change,
and God, please first give me a wisdom to differentiate the thin line between the two..
Amin [-o<




Dicomot dari fbnya Bu Anik :) Menyentuh banget! Dan jadi doaku hari ini.. Mungkin sampai besok-besok juga..

Sometimes..

Sometimes, I behaved like a kid
Sometimes, I act like an ‘auntie’
Sometimes, I cry myself to sleep
Sometimes, I laugh myself silly
Sometimes, I want a hug
Sometimes, I get a smile
Sometimes, I think I am the prettiest of them all
Sometimes, I feel like the ugliest of them all
Sometimes, I face up to those who confront me
Sometimes, I runaway from emotionally charged up situation
Sometimes, I wish time can turn back
Sometimes, I pray time can stop
Sometimes, I wonder what future holds
Sometimes, I wish to be someone I am not…


but Most of the time I am contented with what and all I have now…


When I behaved like a kid; my friends loved me as I am
When I act like an ‘auntie’; people just wonder why
When I cry myself to sleep; I’ll regret the next day that I cried
When I laugh myself silly; people laugh with me
When I want a hug; I would get one
When I get a smile; I would give one too
When I think I am the prettiest of them all; I’d be happy for the day
When I feel like the ugliest of them all; He will pop by and call me ‘Lady’
When I face up with those with confront me; I take up the responsibility for my mistake
When I runaway from emotionally charged up situation; people understand & gave me grace
When I wish time can turn back; it never did
When I pray time will stop; God decides not to spoil me and let time continue
When I wonder what the future holds; imagination run wild and give me a dream to run to
When I wish to be someone I am not; I am glad that I am still Sylvie


so Most of the time I am contented with what and all I have now..

Overtime again

This Sunday I took an overtime again with all of my students in the lab (I have 10 students working on this project). Reza is playing with his friends, attending a music event in Ambarukmo Plaza near my house, so it makes me more comfortable to take this overtime.

And I remember a song by Level 42 with the same title, overtime.. I like that song anyway..

...

Well I've been working on this overtime
you might think that I don't care
but if you look inside this heart of mine
you'll still be there

...


(I posted the lyric on my another blogsite : http://myfavesongslyric.blogspot.com)

Saturday Chat

I spent this whole saturday noon and night to chat with my beloved best friend. She discuss a lot about her problems, which is almost similar with mine. Actually, she almost like my twins so, it's not a surprising news anymore if we have similarity in almost everything..

We discuss about her problems and my problems, karma, you know, something that happens to our lives because of deeds in our previous life and also the law of attraction. I can't tell it here what kind of problems do we face right now, but it's enough to make us feel not such in a good mood. It feels more like ride in 5th wheels :(

But life must go on. There must be a blessing in disguise. Just as MJ said, "still breath and survive", we have to think positively for the future. And never loose hope no matter what.

My Future Hubby

My future hubby might not handsome, young or sexy but :


he always pay attention and cares on me
he always try to getting know more about me
he always make me feel I'm a very mean woman for him
he always around me as a shadow when I'm in a bad time
he loves me and loves my son as much as he loves me




I'm looking a good man with those capacity..